Today of all days to have the two biggest mood swings. Yes two!!! This morning I was as happy and giddy as ever. Then right now I am so mad and flustrated with the library system that my anger is carrying over on to my mom. I feel so sorry for what she has to put up with this week. Its like I have two faces one for school and one for Home. I can be two totally different people. At school a care-free girlie girl and at home a hard working pincushion with issues. But so is life I guess. I can not explain my actions just that is the way I am. I can blame it on whatever I want but I know deep down inside the way I act is caused by what I feel and every action is controlled by me. I guess not having a quiet time in a long time, more or less a week or so, can cause me to act so. Oh I can talk anyones head off on a number of sudjects but not talking to God hurts the most. I know I am contradicting myself but so is how I feel at the moment. I am depressed. Anna leaves Saturday for Italy. Kristen leaves for her dad's in a week. Chris is going to Starke. Its like all my good and best friends are leaving after school and I will not see them til school starts in August cause I will be gone July. Tanya and Liz graduated. Jessi comes home tomorrow and then starts her job. Everyone is going somewhere and doing something. I hate summer. Yes it is relaxing but I never see Friends. I'm a slacker when it comes to geting together with people. Which is another depresser. People give me their phone numbers and emails but I know I will probably never call them or Email them. I like it better when I get to see them person to person. Well everyone study hard for Exams they start tomorrow. I need encouragement I am so melo/mildly depressed right now.